December 6, 2011 Leave a comment
I mentioned the other day that complacency was what got me to 300+ pounds, which lead me to the inevitable conclusion: don’t be complacent. I’ve been thinking a lot about that lately, and I thought it would help me to flesh out my thoughts a little more by blogging about it. So here it goes.
For most of my life I’ve been content to just sit back and let things happen. For a time that strategy worked pretty well for me. In my first few relationships the girl made the first move (I know, pathetic, right?). I chose to attend Whitworth for undergrad because they were willing to accept me (and give me a scholarship) without me having to write an essay. I worked at Mercury because it was the first place to offer me a job after college. I could probably go on if I wanted to, but those are the major events that have just happened to me.
I’ve known all along that I need someone to push me. The Aunts pushed me to go to law school and that was a great decision. This last year, though, I’ve realized that I can also push myself. For the longest time I’ve thought that I was “stuck” as this person that wasn’t exactly who I wanted to be. This last year has taught me that I can change myself. I can be the person I want to be. And I’m not talking about the weight loss and appearances. I’m talking about the inner me. The one who just sits back and lets things happen. That’s not who I want to be. There’s a fine line between being laidback and not asserting yourself. I am laidback, but I don’t want to be perceived as the guy who doesn’t care. Because I do.
This is what complacency is to me. 300+ pounds. Letting things happen. There’s nothing wrong with just letting things happen the way they were meant to go down every now and then, but it feels so much more accomplishing when you go out and make things happen the way you want them to. And that’s my thought for the day.